Rant Post

This is a rant. You’ve been warned.

Last week I made a decision to not go grocery shopping until I have used all the food in my pantry and in my freezer. Once everything was gone I was planning on eating only non-processed foods. This way I would be eating healthier and hopefully lose the weight I need to get rid of. Well it seems somebody higher up has decided to speed up this process for me. Today I opened my last fast acting insulin pen and when I tried to refill the prescription I was told the insurance company would not refill it for another month. Now I get to make my insulin last an extra 3 weeks. So I am now on a no carbohydrate program for the next few weeks. That’s one way to speed up my weight loss.

It’s Official

I am officially a Type 1 diabetic. That little gleam of hope I had, swooshed away in just one little sentence. To be honest nothing will change with what I had already been doing. But, with the Type 2 diagnose there was hope that with diet and exercise I could kick it and go back to a non insulin-injecting life. Now I am looking at this being my norm.
The past few days have been emotionally strange for me with this news. I have gone from sad, pissed off to it is what it is all in just 3 days. I think my biggest problem is I am very competitive and with Type 2 I looked at it as a challenge to kick it. At first when I heard Type 1 it felt like I lost. I do not like to lose! But I have come to the conclusion that I was not just playing 1 game, I am playing an entire diabetic season. So although I may have lost a game, I have not yet been defeated. I will continue to lose the weight I need to lose and I will remain healthy!
At 42 years old I still have plenty of things to do in life and I am up for this new challenge in life.

New Game Plan

After 6 months my doctor finally sent me to an Endocrinologist. I have been on a sliding scale for my insulin since June. This is all I have known. Until this week. I was very skeptical of my Endo changing everything, but I did it. Before I would have a 300 number and a 52 in the same day. The past 3 days I have been pretty steady where my numbers are concerned. I have had 2 lows but I can deal with those. I am no longer chasing my numbers and I feel good!
The other thing my Endo did was prescribe me a CGM, the Dexcom G4. I picked black since I’m supposed to be an adult. Black goes with everything. I am a data geek, so I can’t wait until I can see instant numbers from my new little toy. Today is my first day with the CGM attached. My biggest fear was the insertion process. I didn’t know how painful it would be. I was glad to find out was how painless it was!


Diabetic Cool Feelings

Many, many moons ago I did a Cool Feelings post and i think it’s time for another. You know it’s a Cool Feeling when:

  • You can’t leave work because you blood sugar is too low for you to drive.
  • You are in a public restaurant restroom stall trying to inject some insulin when a teenaged girl pushes on your door and it opens. I overheard her tell her mom that she accidentally walked in on a lady shooting up. I burst out laughing!
  • You hear an older lady behind you at the pharmacy complaining about her $20 prescription and when she sees your total she says, “Holy shit! Sorry I was complaining!”

And Almost A Year Later

Wow! It’s been almost a year since I updated this blog. I think, and don’t by any means hold me to this, that I might want to possibly start blogging again.

Not a whole lot has gone on in the past year. My Granddaughter, Big Bird just turned a year old. We are blessed to have this little girl in our lives. I’m even more blessed to be the Grammy as I can send her home when I start to get annoyed with the crying, whining and dirty diapers. I know my mom was 40 when she had me, but I just could not do it at this age! The best part is my youngest daughter has decided that she does not want a kid. Now I’m sure that thought will change, but at 14 I’m happy she is on that page for now!

This past June I ended up in the Hospital for a month. To make a very long story short, I was stubborn. I ignored gall stone pain for weeks and it ended up blocking off my pancreas. Severe Acute Pancreatitis is not fun by any means. Gallbladder was removed and they had me on an IV drip for nourishment for 3 1/2 weeks to let my pancreas rest. The pancreas started digesting food again but the part that makes insulin did not recover. This has left me an insulin dependant diabetic. I have adapted an entire new healthy diet and I exercise 5 days a week. But on the bright side I lost 20 pounds in the hospital and I have since lost an additional 13lbs since July.

My oldest daughter, Big Bird’s mom, has been on a Roller Coaster ride for the past year. I believe she suffered from postpartum depression which was not treated. She basically went off the deep end and I don’t know why but her boyfriend stuck with her. At this point they are back in a relationship and I hope they make it work for Big Bird’s sake.

My youngest daughter has moved on from Catholic School and has joined the good old public school system. She has gone from a class of 12 into a class of over 600. So far in the 1 week that she has been there, she is doing great. Thanks to a few cute boys she has become active in our Church Youth Group.

I have been up to working and living life to the fullest! I am actually enjoying being single.  If I want to do something I do it and there is no one to answer to. Love it!

Here’s to hopefully more posts. But please don’t hold me to it!